what happens when you're tired?

what happens when you are tired?
do you get bored?
do you get physically sick?
do you get unproductive?
all day long sitting, starring till your eyes pop out to the ever-blinking monitor?

i wish i could simply let go...
and lie down and let myself be calmed with some lullabies
wish i could shut down this computer and just let it sit...
just let it sit...

there are questions whether the whole thing is made for me, at all...
whether i am made for this thing at all,
and it does not really help when deep down inside i have to admit...
i don't know...
i simply don't have a clue...

all i know is that at this point of time...
i want to stop...
just quit...
move on
and does not look back...

but then again,
maybe it is just exhaustion...
...i hope this is just exhaustion....

Banda Aceh, January 17, 2008